The past few weeks I have realized how much I need to become more committed. Not to one specific thing, just committed in general. Every time I start something, I always fall short of finishing it through. I really don't want this pattern to continue in my life. Even the little things, like blogging for instance, ha...ha.. look at the date of my last post, I mean, there is an example for you.
A couple months ago, I started a new job in a laundry room. at first i was like, hey ! this job is really great! it's during the daytime, so good hours, i can listen to the radio, and i work by myself, cool! well, of course, things became far from wonderful...
To make a long story short, I'm done this week. I wish i could find a job where nothing goes wrong. I liked Walmart before I got injured, and they gave me 16 hours a week, and didnt let me recover my back. yea...ugh.
So, I pray that the Lord would give me commitment to Him, endurance, joy and perseverance. Through all of this I am reminded that this life is just a vapor, and it is passing away. I put my priorities in a place many people don't. The Lord IS first in my life, He will always be there, and nothing is going to stand in the way of me forsaking everything else in my life to be used by Him.
I have been given the desire my whole life to drop everything , and be spontaneous, be willing to always say, I will, I will go when you call, where You lead, I will follow. The Lord has no limits, and I never want to limit the Lord, some may say there is no commitment in my life, but what they say is commitment I call attachments. I don't want to be weighed down.
The commitment I am longing for is forever, to my King. Endurance, love, passion, strength, and an understanding that will never be fullfilled until I see His glory on the throne of Heaven.
