He is There. Always. On that Mountain, and even through the Fire, He is There.

‎"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Phil. 4:6

"Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

So, of course I want the Lord to do great things with my life. right?
I had forgotten that when taking a step of faith, its not a controlled, comfortable situation. Its a vulnerable place. A place where I need to rest in His strength and might, and realize, He is all i need. My sufficiency needs to come from Him. Without Him, i will be lost.

How thankful I am that I can count on Him. He never fails!

side note- if I have a car for any period of time, something happens to it. I dont know why, but i never have a vehicle that is faithful, im always worried that any second the next thing will be wrong. I know, thats lame, because its just a material thing.
Then, we have people.
Most of us can count on our parents right?
When we are sick in school they would leave work to some and get us because we were their priority.
But then there are the times, when you need someone, and they are in a meeting, or they just happen to be out of town on the day when you needed their help.
In that moment there is nothing that can change the fact that they cannot help you.
You have called every person you can think of, and nobody answers. Not because they don't care necessarily, but because in that moment, they weren't there.
I think we've all been there.
Or, you may have had a sickening nervous feeling in the pit of your stomach, and you no longer have control. A car accident? You get nervous when you realize, wow, i cant control this anymore.
We have had, and will in the future have spiritual car wrecks.
We were fine getting in the car, driving to our destination, but wait, you thought you were a great driver, but you got distracted, or something jumped out in front of you. Where are you now? are you at the end of yourself. you call for help. what if nobody answers?

I got a job in Belfast today, they want me to have the orientation very soon.
It's an hour drive. My car hasn't been running well. I have no money saved up for an apartment. hmm. I had two choices.
1) Look at the seemingly uncontrollable situation and get nervous trying to figure it out on my own.
2.) Pray and let the Lord stand by my side, take my hand and lead me.

I will choose the one with less stress, anxiety, and the better outcome.
It makes things so much better when we call to Jesus first.
If He is Lord of my Life, and if He is my Commander, then who better to direct me and take care of all the details.
After all, I am tired of making decisions. The Lord can work everything out. Only if I let Him though.. I tend to control situations, then i get confused, anxious, and it becomes complex. When God handles me life, it is more clear.

Now, If moving to Belfast is what the Lord has for me, then this will continue.
There is no doubt that I am still nervous, because it is happening all SO fast. Yet, I know for a fact, He is with me. No matter what the outcome, He is with me.

To know the truth of how God wants to be near us, to lead us, to comfort us, and to live in us, is so powerful.
I think of all the cults and religions in this world that have rituals of how to get to God, and some think they cant even speak to Him on their own! How absurd! Our King Jesus Christ said, "Come to ME, all you who are weary and I will give you rest."
He wants us to long for Him, to be comforted by Him, to walk with Him, and talk with Him." Jesus Christ is the only mediator between God and man.

He alone is all we need.